Simple 24th on 06 August in 2015

Rei Tan would be 39 years old yesterday if he is still alive. He passed away on 15 September 2014 in NUH. It was my harder struggle in my life. I've never felt so lost in my twenty three years. He was looking into my eyes for that moment, holding my hands so tight and then you slowly see him shutting his eye and the heartbeat went 0. 

I really couldn't accept that he was really gone for real. In my dream when i was admitted in hospital which is the same period as him, I know that our future is gone when we were separated by sickness but i didn't know it would be true. I'm still glad that i was given an opportunity to look after him for 1 month before he passed away.

I was discharged on 8 Aug, 1 day before Singapore National Day. He was in ICU fighting his illness, wanting to recover for our future. Before he was admitted to hospital, we got ourselves a space in Woodlands for our flat with HDB. It is something that both of us wish for, to have own flat as i wanted to start a family and he is financial stable to support.  

When i saw him for the first time after i was discharged, i felt so useless yet happy to see him. I really wanted to do my best to be by his side to serve him. All i could do is to be present everyday, ensure that i'm not sick so he is not affected by any virus. Of course his condition did get better and his was transfer to High Dependant Wards under observation and continue his treatment. It was actually dialysis and chemotherapy. 

Seeing him smiling everyday but suffer from the medication, i know that he doesn't like it and really want it to get over with it, He was doing it all for me and his family, to treat his illness so that he can get back to his normal life. To be able to eat whatever he wants and visiting other country.

That 1 month was also a great one for me & his whole family as the younger sister is always there to assist the mother and taking care of rei. It is so touching. It is the best moment in our life to have rei around. 

Not going to continue as i will never forget what happen on 15 Sept 2014. The harder part when i really want him to hold on till he is able to fight to recover but however, i choose to let go. Didn't want him to be in pain any more. His mom & sis was so heartbroken to see him in daze. I know that he is in pain but still want to continue to live in this world. I am sorry to let you go, i really am. 

I miss you, Rei Tan. P.H

My Brother, My Best Friend, My Lover, My Boyfriend, My Future Husband.

201014

Hazy Monday, PSI less than 100.

Last Sunday, went down for YFP training. We have completed the dance for Act 1 and Act 2. Currently learning the formation.

I have yet to visit my boyfriend's mother. wonder how is she coping?? She is the strong type of auntie I have seen. Being so strong since my boyfriend's father passed away few years back. the mom brought up my boyfriend and his sister for 10 years. Now, my boyfriend has left this world of us. I'm always thinking how is he doing without me. I truly miss him.

15 Sept 2014 ~ the day you left me alone

4 weeks without you at my side. We know each other since I was 16 which is in the year 2007.

You were eventually so nice to me as a Big Brother taking care of me. I'm sorry for not treasuring you for the first time we met as our age gap was mine concern that time.

We were always keeping in touch with each other till last year oct in Taiwan.
That is when I wanted you to be mine.
It is so hard to find someone so special and close to you for the past few years.
Our time was so limited yet we treasure each moment. We met both parent and was steady enough to talk about marriage.

In dec 2013, you had abdominal pain and found out about your illness which is affecting your life. You made a big decision to take on the challenge to cure your Myelofibrosis. You had bone marrow transplant from your sis this year. You are a warrior, brave one who was under unbearable pain yet stay strong till your last breath. My husband to be, may you always be happy in the other world. I will never forget the days we spent together. I will be with you soon when the time to come..

I miss you boy~~

Lazy Bum in Action

First Post in May 2014

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31 Mar 2014

First post for March 2014.

Hello! After CNY, I've been missing action or you can say lazy to update.
Been busy everyday and every minutes.
Working, Shopping, Dating, Eating, Cleaning and etc..
Learning something new each day.

To Be Continue... *keke*

preparation for cny

Hi to my blog blog

IS CHINESE NEW YEAR! ! A celebration where we gather relatives or friends together to chit chat and updating one another. A very special celebration for me this year as I moved to a new house brought by my parent (not the HDB rental house), celebrating as a family together in Singapore without missing any members and most of all, able to celebrate with my Boyfriend. *HA HA*

Having a bad sore throat now when you are suppose to eat unhealthy food during this occasion. What a waste of chance! Hopefully i'm able to recover bit by bit before Friday comes. The bugs are flying everywhere, from office to home. Terrible!

Will resume my work on 3 Feb. Short short holidays for me.

Photo update!

We were going for a hair cut at marine parade.

Took a bus for 1 hour and we start taking photo

Normal style

Blur blur style

Teeth style

Eye big big style

Cannot see pimple style :p

Photo after our hair cut

Any different??

This pic was taken during the Christmas period 

Counting down together on the last day of 2013

Ex co of Donut Factory! Sheena was not in the photo.

2013 cross over to 2014

Fireworks!

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